Dead on the 28th of July

Why must it be me that's hurting? Why oh why oh why oh why? How can you say I'm ugly to a girl you're trying to hit on? There is not much to say for I am given up on you. 


I HATE YOU.


Thanks for hurting me. Played me like a toy. I thought you can love me but I was wrong. So, goodbye.

Pain on the 27th of July

We were talking then you brought her up, again.


Stop talking about her..


I don't wanna run away but I can't take it. I just don't understand.


I don't understand how you can care about her so much more than me. Please oh please tell me the reason why. I just wanna know why. Cause I'm so curious. If you tell me then I'll shut up for the rest of my life and not ask about her again. You know its true what they say. Curiosity kills..


So I cracked a joke. I asked who is she to you then you said "Friend, what else would she be?" then I said, "Oh idk, you mistress ;P". Seemed like you didn't get my joke. You respond with something really surprising, well not really, but never I thought you'd say that.


My heart sank.. I couldn't describe how much despair I was feeling. Never I thought that we would come to this point. A point where you hurt me so much, I'm speechless. It would take a lot for someone to make me speechless. It is really really hard for anyone, I mean ANYONE to cause me emotional pain you made it look easy.

Suffering on the 20th of July

When I see your smile. Tears roll down my face. Cause boy you're everything I thought you never were. But still you live inside of me. Although you break my heart, you're the only one I love to not forgive. There are times when I hate you. The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. But now I don't hate you I'm happy to say that I will be there at the end of the day. I don't wanna be without you babe. I don't wanna love you in no kind of way.


What did I do to deserve this? I loved you with all my heart. Never did I, even once, stop loving you. Everyday I wonder if I ever cross your mind. Cause I think about you almost all the time. You lied, you cheat, you flirt and you never reply my texts. Still you said you love me like crazy but how can I believe what you're saying? Action speak louder than words. Your performance show nothing what you tell me. I've given you chances but still..


I want nothing else from you but for you to stay true to me alone! I never want to change you, sweetie. Cause I couldn't. I know because I tried. Who am I to you? Just a girl you flirt with. No one special. I'm just one of them fans of yours whose crazy about you. When are you gonna realize that I'm the only one that's true. I don't wanna beg for you, plead for you cause its all not worth my tears. You are not worthy of me. I know I deserve better. I just want you to love me, at least try. This last chance, K. Take it wisely. Don't blow it don't waste cause I..


won't give up on you.


I am not the kind of girl that begs for a guy to stay. I don't beg. Begging is for the weak. I only ask for one. Stay true to one and only. That is it. Is that too much for you?


If you can't do that then say so. Rather than give me hope that you can love me but then leave me. You'll deceive me! You leave me wanting more and more and more. Everyday I pray to God, "Please.. Let me be given one more chance" Cause I'm tired. Tired of being tired. Tired of hoping that one day you'll come to me and whisper "I Love You". Those three big words can change my life if you really mean it. I know, yes, you say it all the time that's why the meaning is different now. To you, those words are for to hit on girls. Pshhh!


You are nothing but a coward. A coward that's afraid to love. There must be a reason for that. But puh-lease brotha, trust me I don't wanna know. I don't care who you are, where you're from or what you did as long as you love me.

I ain't gonna change no I ain't gonna change for you!

Okay so originally I was actually gonna post about my sad love life. But after hearing Travis Millis songs again. He made me smile. I love you so much! You're so hot, and your songs are so inspirational to me. Ain't that a shocker? Haha love you! ;)

Too pretty ;;)

I am who I am and what rad is rad.

To those who wants to get to know me better, well.. here 10 things about me.


1. I don't make quick friends because I am not as easily trusting and freely expressive with my feelings as others.
2. I will use ignoring as a diversion from drama.
3. Sometimes people will think I am holding a grudge when I've actually just lost interest.
4. I will keep trying before I ask for help... that is, if I ever ask.
5. I'm not good at taking criticism, I'm good at giving it.

6. I like to sit back and observe.
7. You may never know when I'm worried or stressed because of my ability to display a cool and calm demenor.
8. I will measure every angle of a fall before they even consider taking it. I must be sure you're worth it.
9. You must be able to handle a strong minded person to be with me.
10. I like to solve my own problems.