Over

Now I'm single. You had your chance and you blew it. You know I was gonna find out about it sooner or later right? But its okay I don't mind. I know we were gonna break up anyhow. Be happy with your girl. You know who I mean. Take care.


Dear Hafiz, I miss you like hell. Wish you would text me and call me. Cause I never stop loving you I swear. I know you wouldn't come back after what I did. I'm a selfish bitch. But I hope you understand that I need you in my life. I don't dare to talk to you cause i'm scared of what i'll say. I love you forever and always ;( 


"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.  I miss you like hell."

As you wish

So first of all. If you're reading this. I want to apologize for my severe stupidity. I don't know why I keep going back to you when I'm down. I keep begging for you back when I'm sad. Maybe its because I never imagine myself without you. I think you can make me happy and be my savior, my hero. And I'm sorry for leaving you afterwards everytime. I'm sorry for not appreciating you while you were still there for me. I'm sorry for texting you and saying I love you  but in reality we both know I always leave you. 


Straight to the point, I just wanna tell you how terrible I feel for doing all that to you. So from now on, I won't bother you ever again. I promise you that. I won't text you, ask you back or anything. Because when I do all that, I will end up hurting you. Like you said, lets pretend we never know each other. I'm out of your life. I want you to be happy, take care and don't ruin yourself. But if you need anything I'll be there.


So long, old friend. You will be missed ;( xx


"You can erase someone from your mind but getting them out of your heart is another story"

Dead on the 28th of July

Why must it be me that's hurting? Why oh why oh why oh why? How can you say I'm ugly to a girl you're trying to hit on? There is not much to say for I am given up on you. 


I HATE YOU.


Thanks for hurting me. Played me like a toy. I thought you can love me but I was wrong. So, goodbye.

Pain on the 27th of July

We were talking then you brought her up, again.


Stop talking about her..


I don't wanna run away but I can't take it. I just don't understand.


I don't understand how you can care about her so much more than me. Please oh please tell me the reason why. I just wanna know why. Cause I'm so curious. If you tell me then I'll shut up for the rest of my life and not ask about her again. You know its true what they say. Curiosity kills..


So I cracked a joke. I asked who is she to you then you said "Friend, what else would she be?" then I said, "Oh idk, you mistress ;P". Seemed like you didn't get my joke. You respond with something really surprising, well not really, but never I thought you'd say that.


My heart sank.. I couldn't describe how much despair I was feeling. Never I thought that we would come to this point. A point where you hurt me so much, I'm speechless. It would take a lot for someone to make me speechless. It is really really hard for anyone, I mean ANYONE to cause me emotional pain you made it look easy.

Suffering on the 20th of July

When I see your smile. Tears roll down my face. Cause boy you're everything I thought you never were. But still you live inside of me. Although you break my heart, you're the only one I love to not forgive. There are times when I hate you. The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. But now I don't hate you I'm happy to say that I will be there at the end of the day. I don't wanna be without you babe. I don't wanna love you in no kind of way.


What did I do to deserve this? I loved you with all my heart. Never did I, even once, stop loving you. Everyday I wonder if I ever cross your mind. Cause I think about you almost all the time. You lied, you cheat, you flirt and you never reply my texts. Still you said you love me like crazy but how can I believe what you're saying? Action speak louder than words. Your performance show nothing what you tell me. I've given you chances but still..


I want nothing else from you but for you to stay true to me alone! I never want to change you, sweetie. Cause I couldn't. I know because I tried. Who am I to you? Just a girl you flirt with. No one special. I'm just one of them fans of yours whose crazy about you. When are you gonna realize that I'm the only one that's true. I don't wanna beg for you, plead for you cause its all not worth my tears. You are not worthy of me. I know I deserve better. I just want you to love me, at least try. This last chance, K. Take it wisely. Don't blow it don't waste cause I..


won't give up on you.


I am not the kind of girl that begs for a guy to stay. I don't beg. Begging is for the weak. I only ask for one. Stay true to one and only. That is it. Is that too much for you?


If you can't do that then say so. Rather than give me hope that you can love me but then leave me. You'll deceive me! You leave me wanting more and more and more. Everyday I pray to God, "Please.. Let me be given one more chance" Cause I'm tired. Tired of being tired. Tired of hoping that one day you'll come to me and whisper "I Love You". Those three big words can change my life if you really mean it. I know, yes, you say it all the time that's why the meaning is different now. To you, those words are for to hit on girls. Pshhh!


You are nothing but a coward. A coward that's afraid to love. There must be a reason for that. But puh-lease brotha, trust me I don't wanna know. I don't care who you are, where you're from or what you did as long as you love me.

I ain't gonna change no I ain't gonna change for you!

Okay so originally I was actually gonna post about my sad love life. But after hearing Travis Millis songs again. He made me smile. I love you so much! You're so hot, and your songs are so inspirational to me. Ain't that a shocker? Haha love you! ;)

Too pretty ;;)