I smile because I have no idea what’s going on

Examination week. Yikesssssss! The word 'exam' 'tests' only makes me feel a lot lazier than the usual. Like seriously. Everyone is like studying their butts off but not me. Its not like I'm proud of being lazy its just I wanna change. Be more nerdy and geeky whatever. Let alone its fasting month. But mehhhhh, I dont give a shit. I mean I do but since I'm lazy and all what can I do? You know. Tomorrow is the last day of the freaking examination. And we're all off and free until the next one kicks in. What the buck! All this exam talking is making me hungry D:

Lydia Paek

This girl. Her name is Lydia Paek. Let me tell ya a lil somethin' about this bitch. She has a hell of a voice! Like seriously, she blows me away. Her voice is amazing, superb and what else. Oh yeah, if you want to hear her, just search 'Juukkes' at Youtube. She makes all the singers sound like garbage. I mean not literally. But, well, you get what I mean. Lets just say that she. blow. me. away!

And oh yeah

Once a copycat, will always be a copycat

SCREW YOU BITCH

Epic moment fail

Today as usual, Friday, has assembly. My headmastress accidentally said 'babi' on stage when she really wanted to say 'bayi'. Pish posh! But whatever that's not the epic I'm gonna tell you. After 'Cikgu Pelangi' said, "Okay. Blabla perbukaan bulan patriotik whatever". Then a teacher brought a cage with a bird on stage. The bird was retarded. A teacher opened the cage's door and the bird had a difficult time trying to get out. Maybe its drunk or something? Whatever. Then out it went. Instead of going up in the sky, it went down and crashed a car. LMFAO! And the crash made a loud sound, "Pokk!" And straight it went to the ground. Its dead. A teacher put it in his/her palm and went somewhere else. Haha epic moment fail!

The world is filled with crazy people

So right after ICTL, we went to class. The backdoor was closed so we used the front door instead. I saw Amy's bag hanging on the door. I was like, "Why did she put it there?" I ignored and went in. I saw teacher Azma already there, waiting for us. And my beg was missing. I looked around the class and bags are hanging everywhere. On the wall, the window pane. I was like, "Is this a joke? Who the fuck did this?" But I was laughing and giggling looking at the whole thing and everyone. It was hilarious, I gotta admit it :D Please do it again who every did that shit :)

When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses

Just look at that picture. That family. Does it exist in this world? Happy family. No, in my world, tonight, there is no such thing as a happy family. They do not exist. My family. I never label my family as a 'happy' family. But its mine and I love them so much with all my heart. I can't imagine what I would do without them especially my mother. :'( But things are tough, dealing with this and that. All the emotions with everyone just makes us feel like... *sigh. Like they don't love you anymore. When they yell at you, you feel like you are not wanted there anymore. Like you're worthless, good for nothing little brat. That is exactly what I'm feeling. And all you can do is cry and nothing at all. Smile and thank God that you still have one.

I wanna know what love is.

When I was looking at my notebook just now, I saw my words that I said two months ago. I didn't have a boyfriend and was craving for one. This is what I wrote:

Do you know how it feels? When you are walking all alone in the crowd.

No one is noticing you. And you feel like crying.

That is how I'm feeling right now.

Just waiting for the right guy to come and reach my hands.

Then suddenly you fell alive again.

And everyone knowing that you are his.

That magical feeling can't be describe. *Tear fell on page

Aww, poor me :( But now that I got one.. Hmm.. Maybe I should just be grateful for what I had and don't ask for more. Maybe I learnt my lesson. I can't just bail him, so I'll try my best to love him. "I hate you but I love you, I don't want you but I need you". I'm so confused. I know I know, I'm young. But everyone have feelings I can't just hurt them no matter what.

Ally, you should leave no stone unturned.

Lesson learned :)

"It is better to be apart and wish you are together, than be together and wish you were apart"